ironic..
when he around...i dun need his 'hello kitty' blanket...
when he is not around, i keep finding it and hug it to sleep every night...
remember he used to say, ' i need to fly around, so use this to represent me. So you won't feel lonely at night..'
feeling everything fall in too fast, in that morning , i still happily looking for location where we can go for holidays...wanted to msg him to ask about the plan...wanted to meet him to discuss...but decide not to msg him...scare disturb his work..
and evening, called him ..but my calls and request for meeting has stressed him up. A 'bomb' just dropped...
dun feel guilty bah...whatever will happen bound to happen....
is just that parts of me still cant really accept everything fall in that fast..when i still having hopes around bahz... and i also in wrong bahz...
verdict: I missing him..his msgs and accompanies....think my love really too heavy till i have becoming too selfish...sorry...i forget to feel for you and notice all the small changes...
I know some part of you feel that i dun trust you, you have hurt me...dun think this way bahz...coz in fact i really trust you but..just that myself lost the self-confidence and hoping you will give more sense of security....Hurting is just a process of the relationship so we will learn....
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