I thought..

I thought I have really let go of everything..

I thought when i tot about you ...I will be smiling..

I thought I am brave enough to face you...

I thought I won't bother about why and how thing become in this way..

I thought I won't cry anymore...

but apparently, I am wrong...

I am such a skeptical person...full of doubts..

sometimes I feel you still love me..

but once I remembered what I have seen and feel after or even before what has happen between us..

I guess...actually...I have already lost my position in your heart long time ago bahz..

now everytime I heard the roaring of the plane flying across of the sky...

I will start thinking of you..

How is your work?

Did your boss treat you better?

Are you feeling better now?

Dumb me....and now i have to keep forcing myself to stop all these..

stop msging you or even msning.. coz guess you will feel irritating bahz..

and now i even start to think that...I don't think i will be able to face you if i will be seeing you again..

my heart is aching when i imagine the image of you holding another person...

and I start to think...

why i still thinking in this way? Aren't I supppose to feel happy for you?

where has my courage in the past gone to? Why am i becoming timid as I aged....

sighz..

guess this is only one side thinking bahz...guess you won't be missing me at all bahz...